I have no regrets now

 My name is Ankit and I am a crossdresser. I am 25 years old. Now I work in a MNC company. 

I have 2 regrets in my life. 

1. 

This happened when I was in school. 

On Sunday at night i took a bath and i was only in my towel. I was searching for my clothes, at the same time my sister and my mom were folding the clothes. 

My sister took one of her nighty and asked me to wear it. 

My heart started racing. I couldn't believe my ears but I said no immediately. 

Just wear it for tonight, said my mom 

I wanted to wear it but I said no and wore my boring night pant and shirt. 

I really regretted. I imagined it multiple times, how I should handle it. If I said OK I will wear it for fun to my sister things might be different I thought. 

2.

My 2nd regret. This is also happened when I was on school. 

One day in the evening in the middle of the cricket game I went home to get a new ball. 

As I was looking for the ball in the cupboard.  I realized my mom standing behind me. She was holding pulla Jada 

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She placed it on back of my head and said this would look good on you and we should try it. Of course I immediately said no and went out to play cricket. 

I was always regretted it as well. I imagined this multiple times as well, on how I should have handled it. 

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After that those things never happened and I couldn't wear my sister's clothes as well, since I was never alone. 

Now I am working in a city and went home for few days. 

One fine morning I came out of the bathroom. As I entered the living room in towel, I noticed my mom checking few clothes. 

These clothes are really big for your sister, said my mom. 

I went to my mom and I agreed with her. 

Out of nowhere she place a ghagra choli blouse on me and said this would fit you, you should try it once. 

My heart started racing. I imagined these things before but all I could say is no with regret. 

Common just try it once, asked my mom again

I decided it's now or never. 

If anyone see, I will be embarrassed, I said 

No one will see, said my mom and helped me to wear the blouse and the lehengha. 

The lehengha is heavy and I really liked it. 

My mom tied the lehengha firmly at my waist and started to tie the strings of my blouse. I just stood there silently. It's like a dream come true to me. 

Once she is done. She looked at me from top to bottom. 

This really fitted you perfectly, like it was made for you, said my mom 

I just smiled a little. 

I thought my mom would tell me to remove the lehengha choli immediately but she didn't. She went to kitchen to continue her work. 

So I silently went to my room. I swirled around and played with the lehengha. My dream actually became a reality. After taking some pictures. I went to the living room and started to watch TV.

My mom didn't ask me why I am still wear lehengha choli. 

At night before going to sleep. I went my mom and asked her help to remove the lehengha choli. She loosened the string at the back of my blouse and told me, now I can remove them easily.

I went to my room and changed into my pant and t-shirts. 

Next day nothing happened. My mom didn't ask me anything about yesterday's lehengha choli experience. 

Soon after 2 day, I went to my office and started working. I sometimes remember my lehengha choli day. 

After a month, it was Sankranti. Thankfully I got 5 days holiday because of the weekends. 

It's was a weekend followed by the festival. 

I reached home on Friday night and so I just slept. 

Next day after breakfast, my mom sat beside me.

Your sister is not coming to the festival, said my mom and I nodded my head with disappointment 

Last week me and our neighbor, Kavya went for shopping. She bought a silk saree for her daughter and I decided buy a silk saree for your sister as well at first but then I realized your sister won't be coming for this festival and she is not interested to wear sarees either. Then remembered you. How good you looked in the lehengha choli, so I bought you a silk saree, said my mom 

I was stunned. My mom bought me a silk saree. And I became silent. 

Ankit, if you are willing to try a saree for the festival. I will start stitching the blouse for you immediately, said my mom 

I immediately wanted to say yes. But I acted as I am hesitating and I said OK. 

My mom is tailor, so she immediately took my measurements and started stitching the blouse. Just then I saw the saree my mom bought for me. 

I really liked the saree and i was dying to wear it. 

My mom completed the stitching of the blouse in 2 days. 

The day before the festival I couldn't sleep thinking tomorrow my mom is going to drape a saree on me. 

Next day I was woken up by my mom and asked me to take a bath. I quickly went to the bathroom and took a bath. 

Once I came out of the bathroom, my mom helped me to wear the blouse and petticoat. Then she took the saree. 

She took her time and she neatly draped the saree on me. 

She took some safety pins and pinned my saree on multiple places. 

My mom took few steps back and observed me from top to bottom. 

I can't believe, how good you are looking in the saree, said my mom with her hand on her mouth 

We both left the room and my mom was doing all the arrangements for a prayer and I stood silently. 

We both prayed for the God. The entire day I spent in the saree and my mom would smile at me every time she saw me. 

At night my mom removed all the safety pins and helped me to remove the saree. 

Once I got changed into my clothes, I looked at my mom who was looking at me lovingly. 

Why are you starring at me mom? I asked with a smile. 

I hope this is not the last time I am going to help you with a saree, said my mom while kissing on my forehead 

At night slept happily. I have no regrets now. 

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Author : Hi everyone, 

The story is fictional but those regrets are real and those really happened to me.  

Readers if anyone encountered similar situations, please mention them in the comments. I would love to read them